It's not enough
it's not enough
just to say that we're okay.
I need your hurt
I need your pain;
IT'S NOT LOVE
ANY OTHER WAY.
I do this too often. I post something and say one or all of the following:
1. OH MY GOSH THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER!!
2. This is absolutely beautiful.
3. This is amazing. LOVE IT WITH ME!!!!
So I am trying to avoid ALL of them and be unique this time, because I owe this blog a decent post. It's been too long. Here goes:
A while ago, I saw the refrain to this song written on a girl's avatar on an online Catholic girls forum I'm part of. I remember she was going through an EXTREMELY rough time in her life, and she took a lot of comfort from this song.
Just this week, I was thinking about those words, I need your hurt, I need your pain, its not love any other way. I have only recently really started to LOVE other people, and that line resonated in my heart. I, too, have been going through a rough time, because I feel lost and alone and I just don't know where God is taking me anymore.
So I looked up the song using the magical tool that is Google, and gave it a listen. I was blown away by how accurate the lyrics are. We hear a billion songs a day about what love is and what it looks like, and this was a completely new and 100% TRUE message.
I'm at a place where I can see very clearly how blessed I am, and how beautiful my life is. Still, my heart is aching for things that aren't realized yet, and I feel broken. And I have this terrible tendency to keep that from God. I just weather the storm and thank God when it's over, but I don't GIVE it to Him.
This song has helped me realize that if I really want to let God love me, I need to give Him my hurt and my pain. It's not love any other way.