Waffling Over NaNoWriMo

Ever heard of NaNoWriMo?

Well, if you haven't, that yonder link shall enlighten you.

Anyway.....last year, my older sister did this, and i was INSANELY jealous. I was like, "NO WAY!? WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME???"

So, this year, when on a forum somebody brought it up, in a spur of passion, my brain immediately said, "YES!!!!!"

I signed up.

I told everyone on said forum, "I AM DOING THIS!!!"

And than...

Reality sunk in.

Stupid reality...ruins my life every time.

Anyway...i realized, "What have i done!?!?! I don't have TIME! I don't know what I'll DO! Aw, MAN!!!...."

Yep.

Sad, isn't it?

And here we are, more than halfway through October, AND I STILL CAN'T DECIDE!!!!!!!

I'm pathetic.

I mean, i already HAVE written novels! Several novels! Just...not in 30 days.

And when i say i don't have time, that's pretty true. I have plans for November! The 5th through the 7th I'll be gone, than there's Thanksgiving, than i have plans to sleepover and see a movie with a friend, and than there's school, and, oh yeah, my mother doesn't actually ALLOW me to go on the computer to write morning noon and night.

But i REEEEEALLY want to : (.

Such a torturous predicament.

What to do, what to do...?

I'll probably end up doing it ANYWAY.....and just not getting anywhere CLOSE to 50,000 words.

But that doesn't keep me from completely losing it over this minor and completely un-life-altaring decision.

*sigh*